Interesting use of grey-scale!

No, not anymore, not much in high school, but middle school? Yeah. Everyody gets bullied for things, some more than others. I feel lucky, it wasn't so bad for me, but I just know that in 8th grade I literally did not care about myself at all. I just wanted to post this because I know people feel this way sometimes, and the experience of bullying affects you even when it's "over". Tbh, I stopped talking to new people in high school because of that, a lot of people I used to know will sometimes tell me I'm a lot more quiet than I used to be, so this is somewhat personal, but not relevant to how I am currently (except that I value myself for silly reasons, like my art and other interests, rather than just me as a person).

I have friends who are okay with me, and who I'm okay with, but none who I would consider "we can talk about anything" friends.

Also I used to be friends with some other kids who were also bullies themselves, so there was a point where I didn't really have a problem with some of the things they said/did (even while it was happening to me, I didn't see how hypocritical I was being). It's hard to understand, I wish I hadn't associated with them, but it's one of those things where I didn't realize how wrong it was to want acceptance from even the bullies themselves. I'm just glad I got past that... it started and ended in middle school. There's plenty of people who continue down that path and end up never (or very rarely) being able to change, when they behave that way for too long. So I guess there's some guilt in there too, and with the way some people are, I feel like forgiveness is something I don't deserve even though I feel like I may be forgiving of others, to a fault (which is why I associated with those people in the first place).

I don't know, because I was part of the problem. A lot of kids were... I mean, I know I was younger, and I'm glad it didn't stick with me, but I feel like since I was a little bit hypocritical about bullying, even if it was for a short amount of time, that... I don't know, like my experiences being bullied myself are something I shouldn't complain about, I really don't know, I just wish I could go back and change myself. I guess the important thing is that I'm different now.

I don't know, because I was part of the problem. A lot of kids were... I mean, I know I was younger, and I'm glad it didn't stick with me, but I feel like since I was a little bit hypocritical about bullying, even if it was for a short amount of time, that... I don't know, like my experiences being bullied myself are something I shouldn't complain about, I really don't know, I just wish I could go back and change myself. I guess the important thing is that I'm different now.

You are having a discussion here, so Ill just say this quick snippet:

Thanks for being so cool, and ohh my god I love your art! Insta-followed :)