Rachel.... *gentle hug* ....im so sorry....

You know what? I'm so pi**ed I can't bring myself to play anything, or I'll hate it. I'm going to sleep

Im so sorry :[ Christmas always feels gloomy to me for some reason..

Yeah, I understand. My family is WAY beyond perfect, but they act like they are. And they expect me to be so too. They treat me like a child but expect me to be like an adult. And I'm not perfect, no, I mess up sometimes. So when I do, they get mad at me for it. So sorry. It p.isses me off. I think deep down, I still love them, even though I don't always show it. I think I was okay today though. Everyone seemed happy about Christmas (although my siblings tried to rub in their gifts to me, little brats) so, I guess I was happier. I think other people's moods have an effect on me. I don't know. I can't figure myself out. I'm a weird, broken mess.

I hope you feel better soon...

Some of these are harsh =s
Though don't hate christmas forever. When your older, you can choose to spend the holidays with your real family; Those people that you love and make you happy. Family isn't just a connection of DNA, its a connection of hearts (SOMUCHCORN).

My feiance has the same thing. Hes not spent one of those "must see mummy and everyone" christmases in years. Hes blood treated him worse than awefully too(bad things, cant say here. Not my place), now he spends every christ,as with me, his best friend(that so happens to be my bro), my sis-in-law and there kids. Brings back spirit he lost to most of his life of abuse.

Sorry for loong post, just trying to make a point. Christmas is made to suck by those you are with, not by itself.

Christmas is a time of family, friends, love, and joy, not depression and hate! You don't deserve to be tossed around like a ragdoll. If anyone tells you ONE insult stand up to them, and say that they have never been through half the pain yo've been through and they will never understand, so they should just stfu!!! They have NO IDEA AT ALL how much you have tolerated in the past, etc.

I agree with dragoness...

Your grandma is heartless. But you don't have to show her that you're giving in. Ignore her. She's just trying to get to you.
*hugs you* We're here to help you. That turd of a grandma needs to be punched in the face or spomething.

(sorry I had to say etc because I had to do somethin afk)
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Well I hope that Grandma dies in a hole and regret what she does one day. She's just an idiot. Hard to believe she has a heart or soul, she just has NO idea...
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But don't worry Dream. Don't listen to any of those things. *hugs* We wuv you Dream! <3

dream u create epic pics when u vent off. im peeved that what sounds like family cant just be happy to have u round for the holiday. so from me angel and the pack we love u and have a happy new year

That f****** b****! Who the h*** does she think she is! Rachel you are fantastic and beautiful! Don't let her tell you any different! *hugs*

I don't know why she said that stuff to you, especially on Christmas. And ruined it for you. You are one of the nicest person that i know. *hug* I am here for you and if you want to talk.

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dream, i know how you feal. i get like that. i just want to run away. but i dont because one i run out of anger, ill just go back. its frustrating. you cant do anything about it. to help me, i write hate over and over in a notebook, untill its gone. or i go for a walk in the woods AWAY from everyone. i hate ppl. i hate attension. but you have to live with it. i know what your going through. i hope it passes. well, that happened to me on my birthday. worst birthday, no, worst day of the year. i hope it passes. i really do.

And dream, you do not deverse the hate... You have to face your fears and your hates. I go through depression, my mom doesn't know though. I silently cry in my room hating my life... Hateing people and how they treat me, hateing myself,hateing everything. People are mean. People are evil at times. You just have to face it... At times it can be hard and it seems there is no light. But there will be a way to fix things. Theres always a way. (srry for my long and worthless comment -.-)

I'm so sorry u didn't have a good Christmas! ,>_<, I'll continue to pray for u. :)

Sorry that Christmas kinda sucked..... :T