@Cubibibism
so whats going on?

Just struggling with self esteem. Im a really bad overthinker, so everytime my boyfriend texts me and sounds dry, i think that he is getting bored of me and i panic and freak out at the thought of it. He says he loves me, but during text he sounds so uninterested. But when i see him irl, he's great. I dont understand. Ive asked my other guy friends, and theyve said that once you and a guy have seen each other a lot, he'll prefer to see you than text you. But sometimes i want it to be both. --

Its just really stressful. I dont even know if anyone actually loves me, i heavily feel like people are just tolerating me. I've had more thoughts of wanting to injure myself so id end up in the hospital and maybe he'd care, my eating disorder is getting worse, depression is worse too. I literally never got out of bed at all today to eat or drink or do anything. I hate everything and i hate myself i hate how high my expectations are, i am so mad at myself i just want it all to stop --

i dont want to do anything to help. My body and mind is so comfortable to how sad i am, thats just what i am. A miserable freak

im sorry that wa long

*was

@Cubibibism
he still loves you dont worry
i know how you feel with that tho
i get worried like that too
people do love you and i hate seeing you like this because you dont deserve to be this sad
you area very kind lovable person so dont worry you are loved and thats true, guys usually become dry texters when they are comfortable with you. please take it as a compliment. he trusts you and isnt putting on a fake persona over texts.
i cant really help with the self esteem issues because idk how to

im struggling with the same things so it would be bad advice

@Moon_flower ohh. Okay, thank you though

@Cubibibism
just try and live day by day
and remember that if you left lots of people would be sad

and i would be really fcking mad at you

@Moon_flower thats true, but most of them would probably move on afterwards so thats good

@Cubibibism
i wouldnt

linnea wouldnt

@Moon_flower knowing linnea she probably would im sorry :sob:

im sorry that sounded rude i didnt mean to

@Cubibibism
i know her better than you and she wouldnt
she never moves on she just bottles it up and holds onto it

@Moon_flower oh. Then I take that back

@Cubibibism
believe it or not she does care about you

@Moon_flower Oh wow. I did not know that. I was scared to talk to her sometimes because of the other time. But thats nice to hear

@Cubibibism
yeah she can come off cold but i promise she doesnt hate you

@Moon_flower oh good