the sufferer, is litarly scared of people, to the exstent they close themselfes off compleately. sometimes, they stop speaking to outsiders, called "Selective Muteism".

These people fear evrything, from exams, cashiers, malls, and the public in general.
many people dont know whats going throgh these peoples heads, and today ill tell you. ill be telling you all this from my point of veiw for max effect.

-- monday november --

Wakeing up for me is the hardest thing to do. ill sit and think there, for at least a half hour.

Its ten am, that gives me two and a half hours till school. two and a half hours to worry. i ger up and dressed, simple skinny jeans and a make skater jacket, its cold out today. i dont ushualy eat breckfast in the morning, so for the next few hours, i spend it talking to my dad, trying to get myself out of my current mindset.
time for school. as ushual i took off the sweter a while ago and put on my leather jacket, of which has a assprtment of nerdy pins.

ive finaly gotten throgh the traffic of people and made it into the school reception area. this is what i was nervous about. i have to talk to someone i dont know, amd to me thats horrid.

- Hello there! how may i help you?
( seems ok )
- um, im just from the altsite
( ok, good... )
- what dear? your speaking too low..
- i- umm..
( look at yourself. you messed up again. )
- the um, alt site. alternative education centre.
-oh, sorry hun. here you go.

she opems the doors and im determend to get away from the situation asap.

i messed it up again, and knowing me i wont let this go for at least 5 months. i enter the class, small one ushualy quiet. i take my seat, and thats when they start. some morons from another class is here.

- look, its that derpy kid.
- i think shes goth. shes so quiet.
- what a freak.

as always, people makeing fun of my anisocora. ( a condition in there one pupil dosent dilate, and gives you a "crazy" look to you )

i pull out my 3ds and continue to work on various paintings on colors 3d. mondays a free piriod, so i use it to work on my art. afterwards, maddy finaly shows up - a hour late.
we converce throgh the entirety of math. as ushual. i try not to be too lowd, mostly with my laughing. its embareising for me to show emotions in public.

class is finaly done, andni carefully, nerviously, and painfullty make my way throgh the hallways to outside, one more step closer to confert again.

As i finaly come home, after only 2 hours of school, i fall asleep until very late, around 6. it takes so much out of me.

i finealy wake uo, and after laying in my bed for about a hour, i get up and see if we have anything to eat. we dont have much, so i went with dry tost - something imdont mind actualy. after 8 hours of drawing, and relaxation, i go to bed. to do it all over again tomorow.

-- SAnD is a hard disorder to live with. i never even mentioned the constant paranoia of being watched, and my scitzo --

-- im finished btw --

I seriously know how you feel... I have social anxiety and just plain anxiety... It's pure torchure...

...you have a very hard life thanks for shareing though. :'O

(this is a reply of your comment on my picture.) Your welcome! :D i spend most of my time playing video games cuz im a AWESUME Gama! xD *Gamer Anyway i hate school more than anyone else... Btw Check out Kylinn W. She's an awesome Artist & an Epic friend! :D

@AChN: Yea.. Im beast at Battlefield 3, Tekken, And Gta V (hopfully coming soon) Anyway yea...