I hope that you can get some satisfaction with you'r upcoming appointment in Nov.

I am so sorry that you have to go through that pain everyday, you don't deserved that.

I'm sorry sis...I hope things gets better... C':>
It took me 6 months to get my braces on! >:o

*hugs you tight* they'll figure it out soon.

Oh Rachel...this isn't fair to you...*joins the hug pile*

*hugs* I hope your November appointment helps. I'll be here for you.

awww well i hope you feel better *hugs

awww... I hope the pain leaves you soon... TT-TT I hate seeing friends in pain (wait, we even friends OvO oh well) And as I heard your app. is in Nov. it needs to be earlier... Don't they care that you're in pain? ... Ignore me I'm blabbing now

*Hugs Tight* We love you Dream! I hope you feel better!

If this makes you feel any better, I've been having some terrible heart pains lately... from simply "pulling" to being paralyzed for a few seconds.. and just like you, the doctors aren't the least bit helpful. *hugs* Of course, your situation is probably much worst, but we can go through this together...

worse*
Dream, we care. And tell me... it's not really about the headache itself anymore, is it? You act like it might be more about the consequences(*)...

so many people care.

It's not you guys that don't care... You guys seem to care the most, aside from my mom. It's my rl friends. The doctors. Family who know I have a problem, and basically tell me to can it when I cry or say I'm in pain (EXTREMELY rare). -_- My mom told me to stop being so strong, but I don't know how not to. I've been brought up to be a pillar of diamond practically.
Akemi... your right. It's not so much the pain anymore. That's still an issue, but now I'm dropping out of school, people think I'm lazy, I can barely talk and say the right things anymore. I'll think apple and say banana. My sisters laughed when they found out I could have a stroke at anytime. I literally am not allowed to be alone anymore, because my own body is a threat to me. All I can do any more is try not to let my emotions rip me apart savagely and DRAW until I f*cking drop. I'm just so depressed... This feels like it'll never go away... never....

This is the night I finally f*cking snapped... Oct 7. I finally cried my eyes out for me... I feel selfish...

It took 15 years...

*Hugs* I am so, so, sorry... I feel so bad for you, I wish there was something I could do to help you... When I read that, I almost cried... This just isn't fair, you don't deserve this... I will pray for you, my freind, and hope you get somewhat better...

ok. Rachel first thing. YOU. are NOT. selfish. in any, way, shape or form. you are selfless and caring and all those people who don't care don't deserve to so much as know you. All these people who think your lazy, or laugh at you; they don't know SHIT. they wont be going any where with life, things like that, outside of school and such, isn't anything to the world or anyone else.

and I understand by what you mean by your speaking issues, half of each and every one of my days, English stops making sense, literally it sounds like weird sounds and fast babbling I cant even speak. But I know it will get better. for you more than anything. It may seem hopeless and an unreal fantasy of getting better to you, but everyday I come home and wait for the day i'll see the comment saying your head feels better. because I still have hope for you.

Thats ok. ^u^ I'm going to make you a gift, it seems like you need any help you can get right now, and I really hate seeing my freinds sad or deppressed... My arm hurts right now. (I spent all day making a Kitsune Shadow Puppet >3>) I might post it tommorrow, or I have no idea when... Bleh. .3.

Rachel...

You? SELFISH?!? Never! You aren't selfish, especially not for that! I'm honestly amazed by how strong you are, to be suffering all this time, without ever complaining. There os nothing wrong with being upset by your condition. Personally, I know I wouldn't have lasted even half as long as you! Kinda getting off-topic. My point is that there is nothing wrong with feeling some self-pity, especially in a situation such as yours. Just be careful not to pity yourself for too long, because it can become a trap.

Rachel, guess what. I woke up today, paralyzed to my bed. It eventually went away. But my heart is ki//ing me. I can barely walk. Your thing is worse by far, but I'll tell you what; if you get a stroke, I'll get a heart attack. Meet you up there.