Depression... by ElliDawn

I know what your thinking 'oh no not another sad painting' well sorry but, I am very majorly depressed right now, I have been crying all day & I just cant take it anymore, I hate it soo much, no one understands how I feel, I always feel so alone & negative deppresion sucks, I have nearly killed myself from it, right now how I feel I kinda do wanna just give up arrrgh sooo frustrated & upset it hurts so much Here I am making art to cheer others up but I cant even cheer myself up, I feel like

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31 Jul, 2013, 3:54 pm
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ElliDawn

31 Jul, 2013, 3:57 pm

I feel like a failure, I just dont feel like doing anything atm, I feel so bad I even thought of quitting colors, something I really dont want to do, It is just how I feel, I feel so alone like no one cares, I never have any friends most ppl hate me but I cant blame them all I do is create trouble for anyone who gets close to me...

xXGummyXx

31 Jul, 2013, 4:04 pm

I care your awesome

xXGummyXx

31 Jul, 2013, 4:05 pm

can i be your friend

Abstractio

31 Jul, 2013, 4:18 pm

you have friends. im your friend. i like your art a lot. i dont know why anyone would hate you. please dont quit colors.

ElliDawn

31 Jul, 2013, 4:24 pm

By the way I am talking about friends I know in real life, I always seem to be having trouble with them all the time...

XionDesuKira<3

31 Jul, 2013, 5:39 pm

i know how u feel...

Cydnie

31 Jul, 2013, 5:55 pm

Your a great person, you Don't deserve to feel this way, not to long ago I was depressed, and unfortunately it sometimes creeps back up on me. I hope over time you'll start to feel better.

Kj_van_Wartberg

31 Jul, 2013, 6:06 pm

hey! why so sad?
see, you are an great artist and NO pain, NO a**lack and NO gruel situations in your life are it worth to take that you life for and you life with.
Meet friends go in cinemar search a new bf... do something you like too.
maybe there are poeple which dont like you but here in colors you are an great artist and we are all neutral to every group of meankind (not na.zis that are a**holes)
so dont give up and life !

PS: try out physik plz!
it makes happy to know a few funny ways to make a silly person looking most silly. (or make him/her dead (extremly))

TrueWolf

31 Jul, 2013, 8:20 pm

Who said that you're a failiure? Whoever they are, they're WRONG. You are great! You make the best art I have ever seen. I wish I was at least HALF as good as you, and you think that you are a faliure? Depression is a trap. Something happens, that's the trigger. Then, self pity. "Why ME?" It's SO unfair!" I was trapped in that downwards spiral for months. Eventually, though, I pulled myself out. That's when I realized how stupid I had been, surrounding myself in self-pity and blocking out everything else, only thinking about how poor ol' me, how unfair, why? Self pity is like a horse's blind. It blocks you from fun and happiness. It only lets you see the pain. I hope I don't sound mean or harsh. If I do, then I'm very sorry. I just want to show you my view on depression. I hope you feel better soon.

Bluekittie

01 Aug, 2013, 2:01 am

im going through a hard time too and know how u feel but dont give up...

Yaesuko

01 Aug, 2013, 3:17 am

I go through horrible times quite often but things always get better. And there is some out there going through the same crap, you just have to find them. Keeping everything held up inside, to not be willing to reach out, is the worst for you and sometimes the hardest thing to do. It looks like you've gotten past that part which is a huge accomplishment. I hope you feel better soon. :)

NobodyArtistic

01 Aug, 2013, 4:49 am

Dear Shelie you are never alone. ^_^

Thinline

01 Aug, 2013, 8:55 am

Hey, listen. You aren't alone. I know how you feel. I have SEVERE depression stuff, and like yoirself, seem to be going through a lot of medical issues as well that no one can figure out... (including my stomach, which has been actually stopping me from doing, like, anything...)
I actually had to quit my job because of all the stuff going on, and I really just want to be working again and have my life back... In other words, no matter how much it may feel as such, you are NEVER completely alone in what you go through. If you ever want someone to talk to or vent to or any such thing, leave me a message on my latest picture's comments and we can trade FC's so we can SwapNote, Animal Crossing, whatever you'd like. Take care! <3
-Thinline

ElliDawn

01 Aug, 2013, 3:16 pm

See basicly for me I had my troubles start from when I was 16 months old ( I had 3 of my fingers cut off on my right hand luckily reattached) And the trauma from it affected me badly I closed up to everyone but my mum, I ended up with very bad ocd & overtime as I got older things got worse, I had relatives critisize me for being a female I had ones at school bully me & one even threatend to kill me, luckily my mum took me out & homeschooled me, but I lacked friends anyone I got close to eventually just ended up using me & then left me for other friends, Thats when I also started to feel down & alone & very sad & the depression started, all this stuff cause of the stupid accident I had a sixteen months old... I even broke my arm once cause of it... anyways so yeah my depression got really bad & no one but my mum cared I thought all the time about Sui.cide& I was only 13... I was tired of ppl laughing at me & calling me weird cause I would do strange things, or be shy, I couldnt help it I'm shy doesnt mean I should get neglected over it... Then now I have ppl who I thought were my friends dont even ask me how I am when they see I'm upset, So I later have a talk with them & basicly was them telling me just get over it & deal with it I dont wanna hear it... yeah some friend.... I listen to so many ppls problems but when i once mention how I feel or whats wrong, No one wants to listen & i get known as selfish, I honestly dont know what to do anymore, life serisouly sucks!!! I want to be happy i really do...

Thinline

01 Aug, 2013, 6:33 pm

Oh, honey... I know how you feel, really I do! I know you can get through it, you just have to try and force yourself to be strong... I know it's tough, trust me. But do something that is therapeutic for you... I don't know if your art is the thing you live for or not, but if so, keep at it! For me it was music. I started teaching myself to play at sixteen and now (I'm twenty-one) I write and compose music, and it is very good for me. I honestly don't know where or even IF I would be if I hadn't found music. So keep at your art and anything else that helps take your mind off of things or that you have a passion for, okay? :) 'Soon as we trade friend codes, (when you wake up, haha), we can talk about anything any time. I may not know you, but I'm more than happy to be there for you any way possible within the realm of 3DS communication and the like. :3
Okay, I'll shut up now. xD

monkfishlover

02 Aug, 2013, 2:06 am

I hope you feel better soon...

angelbear1

02 Aug, 2013, 6:52 am

You are in no way a failure! Your an amazing wonderful person! You are my best friend on colors! I wish I could see you in person, I would never turn my back on you! If you want to talk, please sn me! I am so sorry your feeling so bad. I will help in anyway I can, k? I truely care!
Sending many *HUGS* I am here for you always!

bolukehu

02 Aug, 2013, 11:56 am

ur drawing is lovely~ u made me happy, dont be sad no more please!

Jori.Johnson

03 Aug, 2013, 5:48 am

I know how you feel, I was born with scarred lungs and there's alot of things I can't do or have to try alot harder than everyone else to do, because of that. but something that makes me feel better is it could be alot worse. Those fingers could have never been reattached, you could be paralyzed and not be able to walk or draw or talk. The point I'm trying to make is, you've had a hard time in some areas but you are blessed in others. Like your drawings, and Just talking about a problem is the first step to improving it, a trait most people don't do for ten, twenty, thirty years.. Also understand that you have your own personality that others might not like, and thats just the way it is. I also have lost just about all my friends in the past year. All that are left are the people that matter :]. Would you like to exchange friend codes?

StarKrestWing

06 Aug, 2013, 1:38 pm

Awww Shelie I'm sorry you feel this way. Just remember that there are always people who care about you and would be devastated if anything bad happened to you.

Thornheart

27 Aug, 2013, 7:25 am

my mom died when i was 4 im 14 now. u gotta move through it
and keep on drawing! [idea] draw you're HAPPY PLACE!

XionDesuKira<3

25 Sep, 2013, 2:39 am

Awe poor you. -hugz- i know exactly how you feel. cuz that is what i have been going thru on a daily basis lately. what you should do is find your happy place. just ignore the people who say thise things about you. just forget them an move on wit your life. :) i know its not that great of advice but still. just go with your heart and do what you think is right.

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