Scrafty.... anyway, ive been sad for awhile bcuz of a good friend i had, i liked her, she broke my heart once, i forgave her. then about a week later, she said i dont think this friendship is working, goodbye jarod. ive been a mess every since then, but till today. do you remember amber? nice girl, she actually likes me surprisingly... anyway since i helped her out about a year ago with some of her depression issues, she wanted to help me out. so atm, amber is trying to get Bec to talk to me again.

i told amber a week ago that Bec likes a guy Amber knows irl but Bec doesnt. Bec thinks of him as the same as her, but Amber knows the true him. So Amber has been trying to get Bec to open her eyes to the truth... Amber keeps telling me "Bec should like you, not that jerk"

hhmm...do you like bec?i mean at this point,im sure you do,but do you like her as in no one else love?or like in a crush like?

idk man,im prayin for ya

I loved her, she was nice, cute, christian... the only problem was that she lives in Virginia...

do you live far far away?

I live in Minnesota... half way across the country

dang...

amber told me that i hurt bec... im im more pain then ever... i just want bec to listen to me, listen to how i feel, listen to my pain, listen to how i didnt want to hurt her, listen to how much i care for her...

listen to how sorry i am...

have you told her this?id just say something like"i know i did you wrong,and i know i hurt you,i know it was wrong.but all i want is knowing you forgave me,and that im sorry"

amber has informed me that its becs parents that have done most of this... but the way amber worded that bec didnt care if me and her were friends... why did this happen to me in the first place, what have i done wrong to deserve my self punishment...

i dont want to be cruel anymore... i dont want to hurt others even if i dont like them... pain...

idk what to tell ya man...im sorry