to be your parents say everthing is your fault but they don't know you like i know you they don't know you at all im so sick of when they say its just a phase you'll be ok your fine but i know its a lie the last night away from me the night is so long when everthings wrong if you give me your hand i will help you hold on tonight tonight i won't let you say good bye and i'll be your reason why the last night away from me away from me.

Messycupcake, please contact Van and tell him to read the latest comment on his newest pic. Its important and could help. If you would do that I would be forever grateful to you!

i will tell him that if i get a hold of him he has not been on for two days now. im really worryed about him i hope he is ok.....

Okay. Thanks.

Thanks messy... for that song... I'm sorry I made you worry about me like that... The uh... thing I ate made me sick, and I needed Alot of time to think... I'm so sorry... it's been very painfull for me... I didn't mean to hurt you, or anyone... I'm so sorry...

Van your alive im so happy! so you were thinking i kind of thought you where but i was not for sure.....so if you dont mind me asking what did you deside what where you thinking about you dont have to tell me if you dont want to im really happy you are still here that stuff you drank dose you body still hurt from it are you going to be ok from drinking it. if so make sure you get some sleep time in so your body will be strong again lil bro. i hope the song....i hope you understand it

After fall left you a comment on your newest pic plz read it when you can

its been painfull for you im sorry i really em remember we can allway talk i know the pain will not go away fast but i dont want you to go though it alone so just talk to me whenever you dont need to hold back but its up to you.

relax messy the stuff I ate only gave me a sore throat and runny nosie, plus some slight stomach pains... but I'm doing a little better the only pain I feel right now is mental not physical... mostly... I'm just having a hard time, I'll talk latter I got to go...

I've been thinking about my life, and asking myself if I should end it or not... I... I haven't really disided yet, but I'm going to try and stay alive... for as long as I can... It's just been really painful because part of me wants to live... then part of me doesn't... and the two parts have just been... well... fighting to put it plainly... I don't know how else to explain my feelings... it's just difficult... it'll pass in about a week or so, it usally does never completly though... summer is here, so that should help... course summers get the lonlest I even miss the bullying sometimes... but I got you guys I can talk too that should help as well... thank you for all your help messy

It's nice to have a big sister I can always count on!

lol guess i spazed there sorry ya summer is lonely and boreing but im the same way i got colors 3d and swapnote so i will be ok hey van so did you do ok on your test did you pass?

I must have cause my grade's a b- I'm just tired of school it was a really stressfull year, hopefully my senior year will be better. although even though this was one of my most stressful years it also went by the fastest. I mean a hour turned into like five minutes and minute turned into seconds.

A b- thats great im happy you passed good luck next year!

only time will tell... first I gotta make it threw the summer...

you can make it!

Thanks Messy, maybe I can make it

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