Very nice! You came in at 9 minutes - making this one of the best 'scribbles' I have seen. : )

@_--_- hey is evryting ok? here 4 u if u need ily/p

yeah js got told to dni by 3 ppl i look up to when i vented and also got told i make them uncomfortable and im js not doing good my dad called me a b!tch nd told me im useless and lazy nd ill end up like my druġġie mom haha sorry ill shut up
@Morgiepoo

@_--_- hey dont shutup, im here for you. their loss if they dont wann interact. if u ever need to vent ill never judge :smile_cat:

i fe3l like i annoy every one and that evry1 hates me and now im crying like a crybaby idk why im such a sensitive little btch my dad was right im good for nohing and i just want love nd validation and ive never been this low and ive been relapsing every night nd i hte it bc i feel like such a disappointment bc i promised sm ppl i wouldnt and i feel like ill never feel validation from qnyone im sorry dad ill clean it up it was a accident sorry yes dad i understand i know i ruined you dad. sorry.

@Morgiepoo

its okay , im here. today was my first day clean after a spiral ater a relapse so i know how ur feeling. know that i dont hate u and ik dai rly likes you too!!! your dad seems tough, lmk if u ever need tk blow off steam ab him :heartpulse: /p @_--_-

i just want to be loved. i hate everything about me and idk how to cope and i say 'ok' alot bc if i dont i just start venting and ive alr made @/LocalStoreCoupons and the guy in new scribbles with the bath block me and ive made @/ZER0DAY uncomfortable too and i hate it bc i was js following @/LocalStoreCoupons vent acc and i forgot bt it and got told to dni its in my most recent comments and i just want to be liked and to come off as a cool person and idk anymore im just rlly sick and confused .

@Morgiepoo

nvm he deleted his posts but its wtvr

@_--_- you come off as cool to me!! trust me as like big sister advice (not sure how old u are but i assume im older than most here im almost 7teen lol) the people wgo are right for you will stick around , if ppl dont want u around its best they said sm so u know who the real onez are!!

tysm ilysm dudes /p
ive toned down the crying :joy_cat:
@Morgiepoo

@Just_M0m1ji

tysm ily/p your so sweet dudes @Just_M0m1ji

aw tysm you mean sm to me rn dudes :pray: @Just_M0m1ji

<3/p @Just_M0m1ji

@kooldude

sorry js ignore it @kooldude

Thank you the person im talking abt is posting about me and practically calling me senstive and that im overreacting his user is wycckz i think and you mean sm to me it seems like i open up too much and i was venting to @/ZER0DAY in wycckz comments nd he deleted them and said i was hella weird and made everyone uncomfortable so i js feel like i annoy and make everyone uncomfortable since ive alr had 3 ppl tell me to dni bc i made them uncomfortable last nighy but its wtvr.. tysm ily/p :pray:

@kooldude

check my most recent liked post :pray: @kooldude

its wtvr now i js dont want drama @kooldude

i mean its my fault i didnt ask to vent but kinda ig if u could talk to them in their most recent post how i dont want any drama and it was my fault and for him to unblock me it would mean the world to me dudes :pray: @kooldude

yh

ik but i have no friends irl dudes @kooldude

@_--_- kool n momji are so right

ill being ur friend :smile_cat:

you are irl bc i see u under my bed sometimes :sob: @Morgiepoo

@_--_- yh i am :heartpulse:

come out and kiss me on my hot mouth then @Morgiepoo

@_--_- later trust :heart_eyes_cat:

bet bbg :wink: @Morgiepoo

@_dai_the_flu js go to then top dont mind the chats with @/Morgiepoo

@_--_- i'm sorry this is happening :broken_heart: ppl on here are really rude, you didn't deserve to be treated like that at all

yeah its wtvr ty for caring though just was rlly bothering me nd now channy stopped following me and removed me from both of her bios and started following wycckz so im gonna ask if she wants me to dni @_dai_the_flu

@_--_- that's weird of her?? wth

nvm she refollowed a few hours ago it was at the bottom of my notifs but its weird for her to remove me from her bio since she said i was rlly cool and her bsf @_dai_the_flu

@_--_- she might just be doing it to avoid drama with wyckz or whatever his name is

yh but wycckz is def overreacting and the fact shes bcking down instead of standing up for me is crazy bc everyone that ive told never stands up for me but i stand up for them and idk dudes @_dai_the_flu

@_--_- maybe its bc she was just defended by wycckz and wants to be on good terms with him yk?
plus channy was JUST in drama idk (not saying i fw what channy is doing im just saying that might be why)

yeah reasonable @_dai_the_flu

@_--_- k so dai knows ab tjis i cant post freely ab it anymore tho bc raidchez is an irl and i cant have him knowing ab this bc were all in a friend group lolz
my best friend ethan. i dont want him like 95% of the time but that 5% is difficult
and i feel rly guilty bcz i hav a gf of 2 years :astonished:
and i dont really want him i just have a little crush yk its weird

ohh i cant rlly relate bc im poly but yuh uhm uh idk w hat to say dudes uh uh uh dang
do u like ethan more than ur gf?

@_--_- no i love my gf more than anything i just think of ethan sometimes
we got reall close in march then i had a depressive episode (brought on by adjustment disorder w/ depressed mood) and became rly dependant on him in that time then i relapsed after 3 years being clean and he was someone i could go to ab it bc he understood thus more dependency
but most times i just feel this intense platonic love towards him and i only crosses that line v briefley

@_dai_the_flu boy update

ohhh

@Morgiepoo

@_--_- js assume most posts like that r ab him, ill lyk if itz sm diff

okkiiiiii @Morgiepoo

@_--_- OH I FORGOT TO MENTION
hes gay so no chance on the firrst place :smile_cat:

@Morgiepoo ohhh ok :thumbsup:

@_dai_the_flu @_--_- fun updates from today if yall want
he has a boyfriend now sighhh
i spent my whole day w him at the tattoo shop it was fun
i hink im mostly over him but i also like have a guttural need for him even platonic

i also showed him my art yipes i hate showing art to irls but hes supportive yayy

@Morgiepoo that might be for the best tbh (him getting a bf) but i'm glad you had fun nd that he was supportive :pray: :pray:

@_dai_the_flu and the bf is super sweet but uh hes also 18??? were 16 but idk he like just graduated its kinda icky??

@Morgiepoo hmm that is kinda weird but idk??

@_dai_the_flu i mean im friends w like a 20 yr old like irl so around here hanging out w older ppl is normal but idk
his bf is online tho so im nawt too worried

@Morgiepoo ohhh ok that's not too bad :pray: :pray:

I think I might relapse. Can I talk to one of you guys?.. @Morgiepoo @_dai_the_flu

@i_love_her you can talk to me
whats wrong? :worried:

i feel like a terrible friend to everyone and i feel so selfish and i feel like i say the wrong things and that everyone actually hates me and that i annoy everyone by opening up and that im weak because i cant make my own decisions and even talk for myself irl and i feel so stupid for being rude or coming off rude and i feel like no matter what this feeling will never stop and the only way to stop it is to die and idk im js rlly spiraling rn @_dai_the_flu

@i_love_her how are you rude and selfish? ily/p and i think ur sweet
but no matter what ur issue is, ending ur life is not the answer. suiсide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. life CAN get better, i promise

k so hunter (my kinda crush) was talking and i was zoning out and he paused and said "should i?" and i didnt know what he said so i said "uhhh nooo" (he was talking about downloading a game ive been bugging him to download for weeks but i didnt know) and he was like "k" and my friend joined the convo and i asked him if he downloaded overwatch (the game) nd hunter said 'oh ight ig' and left and now hes mad at me (he js now told me he was mad) nd im scared to speak up bc i feel like ill mke it bad

@_dai_the_flu

@_dai_the_flu heh

@i_love_her i feel like hu sshould just be honewt with him nnd exxplain yk??

i try to but hes ignoring me @_dai_the_flu

@i_love_her bro :broken_heart: just keep trying

ask him a buncha shıt too

sigh i will @_dai_the_flu

@i_love_her sorry i haven't really been in this scenrio b4 so i cant give much advice

@i_love_her hey ssorry ia was takinga bath lemme read rq

i know the ******* feeling to hurt urself all too well. that situation seem tough, try to talk it out w him, from what ive seen ab hunter so far he seems like he enjoys ur company. if you feel the need to relapse, try replacement thngs, run ur hand under super cold water (simulates the sting) or just get up and get urslf preoccupied w/ sm else. you can do this. i just hit a week clean after a recent spiral and ou can do it too. you have such a beautiful soul, ily/p

yes itook a 3am bath my parents are gone so i have free will

so silly @Morgiepoo

hunter js said "I like you" @_dai_the_flu @Morgiepoo and i asked in wht way nd to elaborate

@i_love_her bro rlly?? is that a good or bad thing

idk @_dai_the_flu @Morgiepoo

@i_love_her well you like him back right?

sigh "Just maybe if you didn't project what others did to you and take it out on me maybe just maybe I wouldn't think that way" (i told him it doesnt mattr what i say bc u wont believe me) @Morgiepoo @_dai_the_flu

he avoided the question

@i_love_her thats kinda selfish of him uh </3

he told me ******* was selfish and weak after i attempted :joy_cat: @_dai_the_flu

sewerslide

@i_love_her ok he's gross

even if he likes you back he's a diсk and not worth it

hugeee red flag

@i_love_her yeeeah im not liking this dude i would distance from him

sigh hes just like uh protective ig lol ahahhahaah :joy_cat: @Morgiepoo

@_dai_the_flu

@mr_toe idk ab that man, i think u should protect your peace

I agree w/ Morgie :pray:

@mr_toes @_dai_the_flu i amm crunk
w my boy sigh... hes calling his boyf rn

dwunk nd hi :smirk_cat:
cute!

@Morgiepoo hellooo!!!! :stuck_out_tongue:

drink and drive /j JOKING i swaer @Morgiepoo @_dai_the_flu

@mr_toes no :thumbsdown:

tsk tsk!!!

nuu not the wooden spoon mo- er i mean dad i dont haev a mommy ssigh @_dai_the_flu

sigh hunter is so weird dude

@mr_toes i will tickle u

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@mr_toes idk lowkey
uhh he probably just thinks you guys shouldn't get back together for some reason??

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@mr_toes I'm sorry if what i'm abt to say sounds harsh but like... He's not good for you. You're attached to him, and he says shıtty things to you all the time and doesn't support you like he should.

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@mr_toes yeah ig
i just don't like how he treats you

sigh Soorry for typing weirf im just realy nervous bc he makes me fel so useles and that im forcing, cnvos with him and ik he doesnt mesn to but yh sorry its how i cope @_dai_the_flu

@mr_toes its ok :heart:/p

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@mr_toes why are you uncomfortable?

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@mr_toes i would try and distract yourself, or reward yourself for not doing the bad stuff

i draw byt then i rip it up sigh i also talk alot bc it distracts, me from life so tahats why i talk so much @_dai_the_flu

@mr_toes Do you have any interests you like talking about? I'l llisten :)

uhh i stopped doing art for a long time bc i chew on the pens and pencils bc it helps me hyperfixate on certain things, so i dont jump from 1 topic 2 another @_dai_the_flu

@mr_toes ohh ok

ydah and also im really hypersensitivefrom @_dai_the_flu

uh idk

@mr_toes from what?

something i blocked out froma long time ago :space_invader: @_dai_the_flu

@mr_toes oh i see

yeah i block out alot ofmy childhood very traumatic @_dai_the_flu

@mr_toes i'm sorry those things happened to you :c ypu deserve better

itss whateveer im over it, its kinda like a fever dream now, it was crazy @_dai_the_flu

@mr_toes oh ok

my,skin behind my nail is ripping off becuaeese ive bn bititng it , sigh i n3ed to stop ripping my skin off @_dai_the_flu

@mr_toes put a bandaid or tape over it to prevent you from continuing

we eot have bandaid s @_dai_the_flu

@mr_toes use tape

we doent have tape eirherr only my dads and yk @_dai_the_flu

@mr_toes do you have anything else you could use?

iidk.

@_dai_the_flu

@mr_toes maybe like *** em in something?

*wrap

brb @_dai_the_flu

@mr_toes ok :thumbsup:

hi back @_dai_the_flu

@mr_toes hi :wave:

got nutella lolz @_dai_the_flu

@mr_toes yummy :yum:

im addicted to it @_dai_the_flu

@mr_toes real i love nutella :pray:

:space_invader: @_dai_the_flu

@mr_toes :alien: !!

:baby: @_dai_the_flu

@mr_toes :pregnant_woman:

#ilovegambling @_dai_the_flu

@mr_toes yuh!!

yuhhhhhh @_dai_the_flu

@mr_toes @_dai_the_flu uh hi im gonna sound mean but i rly donr like fluttershybutterfly i feel like theyyre like super young and their vibe is off??

YES I NEEDED SUM1 TO SAY THIS :broken_heart: @Morgiepoo

@mr_toes bcz i feel so uncomfortable when we interact like please uhhh dni :broken_heart:

but like how do i do that w my only grounds being ur vibe is off :sob:

i dont lik ur vibe dni.

just say "dni bc you remind me of someone irl that traumatized me" @Morgiepoo

@mr_toes BAAHAHA
i mean... i coukd thooo

grr ur aura is not alpha :wolf: @Morgiepoo

@mr_toes maybe i should just say like dni homestuckies???
i dont think i know any others

yesss @Morgiepoo

@Morgiepoo i mean they're on my friends list idm them too much but i kinda see your point