I'm quitting drawing for a while.
I'm overwhelmed by frustration and rage right now, because no matter how hard I try, I never achieve the attention and praises that I had hoped for.
It's incredibly easy for me to give up in the middle of a drawing, but you know what?
I continue.
I continue because I just know when I finally finish my piece, post it, and go to sleep, I'll wake up to many likes and comments. But no. I actually wake up to not much at all. Although discouraged, I try once again.
I was quite proud of "You Dork", but apparently, my audience wasn't.
A mere 11 likes at best
I should've known by then that it'll be useless to try to impress you guys by now, but I guess I didn't
I went ahead and drew traditionally, not digital, this time. It was a comic page.
I poured my heart out on that page, so very excited to show it off
When, at last, done, I posted it onto my Facebook and my Tumblr
And again I get a very poor response.
3 likes on Facebook, 8 notes on Tumblr.
What really made me sickened, was that my own best friends completely ignored it.
Half an hour later, I posted a idiotic, humorous status about dieting and junk food.
16 likes on the status, in which those aforementioned best friends had been included.
My work does not feel worth anything anymore.
For God's sake, TRACED art on Colors gets tons of stars
It's excruciating.
I receive the best support from LurvBucket, or formally known as "Lee" from Flipnote Hatena.
I cannot thank her enough for her efforts, but she is just so loved by the Colors community. Same with Flipnote. She has lots of friends.
I, honestly, don't even think of myself as a friend to her. She simply just asked me how to flip the image in Flipnote when she first talked to me. After that, I kept on bugging her and envying her as her popularity quickly exploded. Even though she pays me full attention, I feel lonely. I feel that years of practicing to impress my audience is pointless.
I'm just selfish and demand too much attention.
Later.
I'm quitting drawing for a while.
I'm overwhelmed by frustration and rage right now, because no matter how hard I try, I never achieve the attention and praises that I had hoped for.
It's incredibly easy for me to give up in the middle of a drawing, but you know what?
I continue.
I continue because I just know when I finally finish my piece, post it, and go to sleep, I'll wake up to many likes and comments. But no. I actually wake up to not much at all. Although discouraged, I try once again.
I was quite proud of "You Dork", but apparently, my audience wasn't.
A mere 11 likes at best
I should've known by then that it'll be useless to try to impress you guys by now, but I guess I didn't
I went ahead and drew traditionally, not digital, this time. It was a comic page.
I poured my heart out on that page, so very excited to show it off
When, at last, done, I posted it onto my Facebook and my Tumblr
And again I get a very poor response.
3 likes on Facebook, 8 notes on Tumblr.
What really made me sickened, was that my own best friends completely ignored it.
Half an hour later, I posted a idiotic, humorous status about dieting and junk food.
16 likes on the status, in which those aforementioned best friends had been included.
My work does not feel worth anything anymore.
For God's sake, TRACED art on Colors gets tons of stars
It's excruciating.
I receive the best support from LurvBucket, or formally known as "Lee" from Flipnote Hatena.
I cannot thank her enough for her efforts, but she is just so loved by the Colors community. Same with Flipnote. She has lots of friends.
I, honestly, don't even think of myself as a friend to her. She simply just asked me how to flip the image in Flipnote when she first talked to me. After that, I kept on bugging her and envying her as her popularity quickly exploded. Even though she pays me full attention, I feel lonely. I feel that years of practicing to impress my audience is pointless.
I'm just selfish and demand too much attention.
Later.
